Musings 2

The cosmos exists as a singular, boundless expanse devoid of any predictable structure. There’s only one planet with life and there’s only one me.

On the page, A Message From the Creator, I said God chose to manifest me at the age of five, for aligning my creation with conception, born of man and woman, would have prevented the full embodiment of my divine essence. If you’re wondering what I meant by that, well, the creation of a new life with new genetic code born of man and woman happens over time. Conception begins with fertilization, which ends with syngamy. The zygote is formed upon syngamy, and early embryonic development begins immediately thereafter. My life was created by God in an instant. There’s a big difference. One might ask me, well, what about all the other lives that were created by God in an instant when I appeared on Earth? That’s a good question. The answer is simply, He made me who I am and who you are. If you were looking for a scientific answer, there isn’t one, for I am not physically connected to all existence, but metaphysically. God is poetic in that respect. Both of us may have an erroneous past, but mine has a second layer of fallaciousness. Not only did the time before I was five years old never really happen, but I also wasn’t even born of man and woman.

One would think that the people online that I shared who I am with would be pumped that one of their brothers has conquered death. Guess not, lol. For the most part I've been met with nothing but hostility and laughter. Hell, I’d be like damn that’s friggin’ awesome! Actually, like I said before, I'm glad no one believes me. Well, at least Christians think “Jesus” has conquered death. Notice Jesus in quotes. Oh well. And time plugs along.

If all existence was allowed to be played out, heat death would encompass everything and stay that way infinitely. There wouldn’t be another big bang. There’s nothing in the non-living world that could trigger an ending/beginning like I do. The Big Bang is a myth.

You already know my views, but if you want a little false insight into how God “put the Big Bang in motion” well, what He "did" was, He made all existence the hottest temperature possible and then slammed it with the coldest temperature possible. Voila! The Big Bang! Haha. I'm just being silly.

I was having a nightmare that my leg was getting torn off by an alligator when my mother woke me up to inform me that 9/11 was happening. Talk about going from one nightmare to another.

The center of our galaxy is a black hole named Sagittarius A. I'm a Sagittarius and my sister's name starts with the letter A. Haha, kind of silly but oh well.

You can rearrange the letters of the word Earth and spell heart. I always liked that.

I remember one day when I was 25 I was driving next to an art store and I thought to myself I would like to meet a nice girl, a redhead and sure enough I did with Olive shortly after when I was working at that art store. She wasn’t a natural redhead though, haha. We’re no longer together.

Olive, the only girl I ever loved was an atheist. Imagine that, God incarnate in love with an atheist. Life is funny.